An evening set aside for writing

It’s amazing to me how difficult it is to just zone out and focus on myself, do something that makes me happy. Like right now, I have a rare evening to myself, I didn’t bring home any work, and I’d set aside precious, precious time to blog, but ……... someone is talking to me on the phone.

In order to write, I need to be alone. I am. I need silence. I don’t have it, despite all my carefully laid plans. And I need to be in a certain headspace. I was, but now I’m not. Like I’ve said so often, I think about writing every day, but because it’s hard to achieve my ideal writing conditions, I end up writing a complete post far less often than I’d like to.

 Ok……. more than half an hour later…..and now my spirit is so disturbed, I can’t write.

But I’ll post the blog. Because that was what I wanted to achieve tonight. FFS!

So if you've ever wondered why I post so infrequently, now you know. This is also part of my life. It can get really frustrating to crave time out to do something you love and to have it taken away from you, over and over again, because other people's needs always come before your own.  

Only I can change this. I need to brush up on how I articulate my boundaries.