Two days to my next concert

In two days' time, I'll be about to start my concert with Wayne. Having another opportunity to sing with him is more special than anyone could possibly understand. Since he left Cape Town, we've been able to do only one gig. This is our second gig since the end of 2012, and our only one for 2014. Insane!

I do think I'm a bit of a pain to live with right now, though. Even though I have different people playing roles on the actual night, I tend to do everything myself, leading up to the event. For many reasons, it's how I prefer to do a concert. Maybe I just have to put a team together well before the event and learn to trust people more.

Some of the things I have to do are relatively simple. like securing a suitable venue, which I do months ahead of time. Other things, however, can be really frustrating - like selling tickets! The good news is that I managed to meet and exceed my minimum, and the show is now sold out! How cool is that?!

I must say, though, that being a perfectionist is very tiring! Eish! I have all these details in my head - the aesthetics of the venue, lighting, sound, ticket design, brief for the MC, catering, my outfit, my hair - and, even though I work my way methodically through my extensive checklist, I tend to get really stressed out. And I haven't even mentioned the set list for the night, the songs I plan to perform. Deciding which songs to do, and then in which order, can be another headache.

The night before we had our rehearsal, I set time aside to do a long journalling session, processing my thoughts, my fears, my concerns. By the time I eventually fell asleep - at 4a.m. - I had arrived at a place of profound peace. The awareness that I gained was the same lesson the universe had taught me earlier this year: when I remove my ego issues from my thoughts, all I'm left with are feelings of happiness and peace, and clarity. When I focussed on Wayne's brilliance and on  the beautiful music we'd be making, I became super-excited, about the rehearsal and the show.

On the day of the rehearsal, all my pre-concert jitters disappeared, and I felt as relaxed as I did when we used to gig regularly. I'm really looking forward to the concert. Getting to the point, today, of having sold all the tickets, was exactly what I needed.

Tonight and tomorrow, I'll be busy with a few last-minute tasks, and then it will be Sunday, a day I've anticipated for a whole year! I'm going to be doing a concert of my original songs with Wayne, and I cannot wait! Bring it on!

I'll write again after the concert, tell you how it went.