"If there's music inside of you, you've got to let it out." (From my song, Music Inside of Me)

Hi! I'm Trudy Rushin, and this is my blog, created in June 2009. I am a singer-songwriter-composer who plays guitar. Born and bred in Cape Town, South Africa, I blog about whatever captures my imagination or moves me. Sometimes I even come up with what I like to call 'the Rushin Solution'. Enjoy my random rantings. Comment, if you like,
or find me on Facebook: Trudy Rushin, Singer-Songwriter.

I also do gigs - solo, duo or trio - so if you're looking for vocal-guitar jazz music to add a sprinkle of magic to your event, send me an e-mail to guitartrudy@gmail.com.

To listen to me singing one or two of my original songs, type my name on www.soundcloud.com or www.youtube.com


















Tuesday, 10 December 2013

Reflecting on the life of Nelson Mandela / District 6 Museum turns 19


I realised today that I need the same three things in order to write a blog article as I do to write a song: to be deeply moved, space/solitude and time.
Today turned out to be a beautiful, bright, hot and windy day in Cape Town. Not one for crowds, I nevertheless took a train to town, to be part of the District Six Museum’s 19th birthday celebrations. To my delight, there weren’t many people viewing the big Nelson Mandela memorial service (at Orlando Stadium, in Gauteng) on the big screens outside the City Hall, so I could walk through town easily. A few milestones happened in my own life 19 years ago, so in a way it was a time of personal reflection, as well. In 1994, I graduated for the second time, I got married, I voted in a general election for the first time, and I became a mother. So - quite a watershed year!

The atmosphere at the District Six Homecoming Centre (pictured above) was celebratory, yet respectful of the fact that the whole country was in mourning for our great leader, who died on the evening of 5 December. In her opening speech, Bonita Bennett (head of the District Six Museum) made it clear that they had had a dilemma about continuing with today’s event, but that they had reached consensus that there wouldn’t necessarily be a clash of interests, as all who mourned Madiba’s passing also celebrated his life and his great contribution to the country and the world. She was right – we were there to celebrate the museum’s 19th birthday, but we were all in mourning; people possess the capacity to feel many emotions at once, so there was no contradiction. Some self-righteous guy pitched up at the end of the event and when asked where he’d been, made a point of saying  - looking around to make sure he had an audience - that he’d been making a statement, as he was opposed to the idea of the celebration. Interesting that he’d turn up at all, considering the intended ‘statement’. Different strokes…..! I suppose there’s not much satisfaction in staying home to make a statement if nobody knows. J

The programme was short, but interesting. The D6 Museum, a living and growing museum, has a few projects running, and two of these were highlighted today. There was a group of youngsters who had been put through a course of recording oral history and the basics of curating, amongst other things. They each received certificates. The other group that was acknowledged was a group of senior people, who had been through a “learning journey” with Mandy Sangster, the Education Officer at the museum – these people had been taught the finer points of telling their authentic stories, and were going to be involved in the daily work that the museum did on an ongoing basis. I was inspired by the fact that the outreach and empowerment work of the museum embraced both the young and the old.  

A few members of the audience spoke, off the cuff, and this part of the programme was also interesting. I’m always curious when watching people with a microphone in their hands and a captive audience in front of them – with some, you wish you could listen for much longer, and others, you wonder if they’ll ever stop! J

Then, the main feature of the event was actor and producer (I’m sure he wears lots of other hats), Basil Appollis. He did an extract from his show, My Word, currently on at the Baxter Theatre (till 31 Dec.). If I understood correctly, it’s an hour-long, one-man show, where he ‘recites’ (there has to be a better word) extracts from the play, Buckingham Palace, by Richard Rive.

I love meeting up with old friends, and this is what I did at the event; I got chatting to five different people and that, to me, was the cherry on top. There’s nothing like personal connection.



Afterwards, I made my way to the Grand Parade, a big public space opposite our City Hall   (pictured above), just one block from the Homecoming Centre. I’d decided that, if there weren’t huge crowds (I’m slightly claustrophobic), I’d watch some of the proceedings on the big screen, then write a message in one of the memory books. When I stood in front of the big screens, I felt the oppressive heat of the day and decided I’d rather get home before peak hour and watch in comfort. I asked someone about the memory books, she directed me to a security person, and within minutes I had written my short message in one of the books. I felt like I had done something significant, even though it was such a small gesture.

Like most South Africans, I’ve been reflecting on the life of Nelson Mandela, thinking about the many aspects of his life. I can’t help but be struck by a few things: his incredible strength of character and conviction, his forthright manner of communicating, his skill as a political and military strategist, and his depth of wisdom. But most of all, I’m inspired by the consistency with which he dealt with people – quite simply, he treated everyone with the same measure of respect, regardless of rank and all the other superficial things we are socialised to heed when deciding how to approach someone.

I am also deeply inspired by how he looked after himself, eating simple meals and walking every day (until his health failed). And I think we all loved his sense of humour. He was an insatiable scholar, he used his incarceration to further his education, earning degrees while imprisoned, and he emerged from his years in captivity championing education as a weapon against poverty. He came out of prison on his own terms (I clearly recall how many times we’d hear on the news that he’d been offered conditional release, but that he had refused) and he shocked the entire world by preaching forgiveness and inclusivity.

The real challenge for South Africa is to get back to the vision Nelson Mandela had for this beautiful country. Yes, we can each emulate him in our own lives, but we sorely need our leadership to stop feathering their own nests, and to get back to what really matters – eradicating the dire poverty all around us, building houses (and there’s nothing wrong with RENTING, people!), creating jobs, and cleaning up the crap in our education system. For starters!

What are we waiting for?



Tuesday, 19 November 2013

Trio concert at Baran's: Sun 1 Dec at 4:30pm

On Sunday 1 December, I'll be doing a trio concert at Baran's Kurdish Restaurant. This exotic venue has been the location of three of my concerts and quite a few other gigs. Located at 36 Burg Street, in the city centre of Cape Town (in fact, right on Greenmarket Square), it is a gem of a place; well worth a visit.

The line-up for this concert: KEITH TABISHER (guitar), VALENTINO EUROPA (bass) and I (voice, guitar)
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We'll be doing some of my original songs, some original instrumental pieces by Keith, as well as a few covers that we particularly love.

Tickets cost R100 and include a light meal. Drinks are NOT included in the ticket price.

To purchase tickets, you may contact me via this blog, my e-mail address (guitartrudy@gmail.com) or my Facebook Musician page:
https://www.facebook.com/pages/Trudy-Rushin-Singer-Songwriter/345091698939418
In fact, keep checking my Facebook muso page for updates.

This concert is the second in a series of fundraisers for "Getting Summer to Thailand", a project aimed at enabling my daughter, Summer, to go to Thailand with their school next year. Our previous concert was on 11 August. I'd hoped to have the second one in October, but got so busy with other things, that 1 December was the soonest we could realistically hold the next one. Concerts are not cake sales - a whole lot of behind-the- scenes work goes on.  A WHOLE LOT!

I'm really looking forward to working with these two fine musicians, and hope to be performing to a full house. It's a cosy venue, so we're looking at 60 - 70 people. Ticket sales are going well, so please don't wait too long to contact me to reserve yours, as they might be sold out by then. Just contact me, and I'll set them aside for you. Capetonians have a reputation for leaving everything to the last minute. Am I right?  :-)


Pictured above, Keith and I. Below, Tino Europa on double bass. Both pics taken on 11 August.


Tuesday, 29 October 2013

I'm on YouTube!

I'm very happy to announce that my first-ever YouTube video is live.  I wrote the song, "In the Shade of Table Mountain", early in 2011, after I had spent some time interviewing land claimants of District Six, many of whom were in their senior years.

Here's the link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QniLmlEESCI

On the video, produced by Lisba Vosloo, I perform with long-time friend and duo partner, guitarist Keith Tabisher. Part of the footage was filmed at Baran's Kurdish Restaurant, part at Milestone Studios (where owner Murray Anderson recorded the audio track) and part in present-day District Six. Archive footage of the area was also used.

Big smile! I'm busy working on getting the next one up.

The pic of us below was taken by photographer Shireen Louw, at a wedding in Sept 2013.


Saturday, 28 September 2013

And today is…..?

My mother asks this question throughout the day. Everytime she asks, I have to pause and orientate myself, because it’s the school holidays, and, with my usual routine out by the window, I don’t have as clear an idea of where I am in the week as I normally do. After I answer her, she admonishes herself for not having known. I assure her that it’s understandable, as she doesn’t have appointments or deadlines – I tell her most retired people experience that. It feels wrong to tell  her, “Well, it’s because you have Alzheimer’s”, even if it is true.

It’s funny how the words spoken by one’s mother have a level of power that stands alone. Yesterday my mom saw my freezer door ajar and commented on how much ice there was. I told her I was busy defrosting it, and that it had been a lot worse when I started the task on Monday. She asked me why it had become so badly iced up, and I explained that I had been busy. She said, “But surely if you did it regularly, it wouldn’t get that bad?” She was right, of course, but I reiterated that I’d been very busy. And then she said something that affected me profoundly: “But that’s very naughty of you.” A simple sentence, said in all innocence, said in the typical way a mother speaks to a child. It hurled me back to my childhood, a time when everything my mother said informed me as to whom I was, whether I was on track or not, a time when I was a fully functional pleasing machine, where my sense of myself was gleaned through the spoken words and other non-verbal nuances of my rudder, my radar, my pilot, my anchor – my mother.  In an instant, I pulled myself back to the present and explained, probably in too much detail, just how busy I usually was, and how school holidays were the only times I could do this kind of thing.

The power of that one sentence, though - and its trigger effect - reminded me of a time when I’d gone back, for the umpteenth time, to a boyfriend I’d said I’d finally broken up with. An honest, well-meaning friend said to me, holding nothing back, “I’m very disappointed in you, Trudy.” I don’t think she’ll ever know how those words cut through me, destroying my sense of my ability to make a good decision. Again, she was completely right – it was ridiculous of me to have given the person another chance, and it must’ve been disappointing to all my friends; they just didn’t say it to me. In her childlike innocence, she had said what everyone else was thinking, but was too socially conditioned to say. The one thing that that encounter taught me, though, was never to say those words to anyone, especially my children, unless I was prepared to live with the alienating consequences. Words can be more powerful than we realize, and can cause long-term damage.

But the beauty of the power of words is that they can also alter the course of one’s life in a positive way; sometimes, a simple sentence, uttered at the right time, can open your eyes, make you change direction and lead you to more freedom and happiness than you’ve ever had. A few years ago, stuck in a decaying relationship, I was asked this question by my partner, after I’d complained about things I wasn’t happy with: “Trudy, who’s in control of your life?”  That was arguably the most life-altering question I’d ever been asked. It sparked an energy vibration in me to regain control of my life and to take decisions that were healthy for ME. It was a question that freed me from a confining situation, a situation that only I could free myself from. 

The time was obviously right.

And today is…..? 

Monday, 23 September 2013

September school holiday


Day 1 of the long-awaited September school holiday. While I have spent quite a bit of time on my laptop, today's actually been one filled with housework. Decided to do as much as I could today (and tomorrow), in order to enjoy the rest of the week. Having said as much, there's still quite a bit of school (college) work to do over the next few days, so this is more like a working holiday than anything else. Still, it's such a delicious feeling to wake up naturally, without an alarm, and to realise that, not only do you not have to go to work, but the sun's shining, the birds are chirping and it's starting to look like spring! Stretch.... lie in a bit longer.... relish the freedom!

We've had a lot of rain, recently, with snow capping our nearby mountains. There was even snow on Table Mountain, on two occasions! Very unusual. Driving around our suburbs yesterday, every now and then I'd catch a glimpse of the snow-capped mountains and just smile - it's quite surreal.

My landlord had the gardener around recently, so the garden's looking cleaned up and 'nice'. I haven't had much time to be in the garden, but I love seeing things I planted long ago starting to flower again. Basically, I just love plants that take care of themselves. Like clivia - oh my goodness, don't they make a pretty picture!
I used to have a lot of impatiens (the perfect plant for me!), but there's nothing left. The last time I looked for some at the nursery, they were sold out. Other lazy gardeners must've got there before me. :-)

On Wednesday I have an exciting day - finalising my first-ever song video! Haven't thought beyond a certain point yet (typical!), but I'm sure it's got a lot of potential for me, a somewhat reluctant artist who loves performing, but can't seem to get her material released.  And don't talk about copyrighting! OH, I could kick my butt, the way I've been dragging my feet in that department. I think I just need someone to manage my music career for me. I'll write songs and perform, and you do the other stuff. Yes - now there's a plan. Any takers?

So, with my little afternoon blog moment done, it's back to the To Do list. Tick. Tick. Tick.

Restoring my equilibrium / Wedding on a farm


Isn't it funny how times change? Something I've realised is that, as crazy as my life may seem, I need the routines that exist amid the seeming chaos. When my routines change, especially when the catalyst is external, I struggle to find my equilibrium. I'm old enough to know that 'the only constant in life is change', and to have dealt with some fairly major ones, but I still find myself feeling wobbly when faced with yet another one.

So, to cope, I find myself clinging feverishly to little routines and rituals that are still within my control; they give me a sense of continuity, of stability, something I realise I badly need.

I've also realised that, no matter how crazy my life becomes, I'll always want to be involved in musical performance. When I go for long periods without it, I start to feel like my spirit is shrivelling, like I'm losing my sense of what life's about. In contrast, when I do perform, I feel like an eagle soaring, like I could fly, fly, fly and never stop. Hard to explain. Some people call it an artistic personality, but I've seen it in people who are not artists; this is a phenomenon of people who have a burning passion. I've probably said this may times in my posts, but I really wouldn't know how to live without this passion. No matter what I go through that feels like 'Plan B' for my life, as long as I have performing opportunities, I can put up with anything.

Yesterday I sang at a wedding on a wine farm. It filled my spirit with so much joy, for so many reasons. Firstly, the statement two people make when they get married is such a huge one - that true love deserves commitment, and that life works better when we walk the journey with a partner. Secondly, there's something magical, almost other-worldly, about weddings - people dress up, the place is decorated beautifully, and it's a gathering of happy people, all there to celebrate love. What can I say? I'm a hopeless romantic. :-)

But of course I wasn't there as a guest - I was there, with guitarist Keith Tabisher, to play my guitar and sing. And that makes me happier than you could ever imagine.

Another source of delight for me was that it was held on a farm, so we had the wonderful experience of driving through farm roads and filling our lungs with clean country air. The photo attached to this post was taken as we were leaving the farm.

I dream of leaving the city and living on a farm.

One day....

Tuesday, 30 July 2013

Moratorium on kindness?

Last week, I found myself in a room with two people raising their voices at each other, just like so many times before, with the common element of all the arguments being one individual. This is a person who has, to put it mildly, a problem. With very poor boundaries, respect for others, and  - in my opinion - self-respect, she blasts her way through any situation that presents her with difficulty, becoming verbally abusive, refusing to listen to anyone else's opinion or explanation, and spewing her toxicity over everyone within earshot. The fact that this is a work environment, where the staff are thought of as educated professionals, makes this even more disgusting.

In this most recent outburst, a well-meaning colleague was taken to task for having made a mistake in the course of doing a favour. Instead of bringing it to her attention in  a calm, professional manner, there was accusation, vitriole, and the now-commonplace verbal barrage, complete with headache-inducing volume, finger wagging and that distorted, arrogant facial expression I have become familiar with in the last seven months.

At the end of the ugliness, there was an announcement that colleagues were no longer to do favours for each other, a demand initially screamed across the room by The-out-of-control-one. For some reason or other, I found this even more offensive than the ugly argument I had just been privy to. To instruct people not to help each other, when they form a team whose very thriving depends on co-operation, unselfish sharing of resources and being there for each other (especially when deadlines loom), is extremely counter-productive. For me, it was completely unacceptable, because it goes against my chosen value system, a system of living gently and kindly that I actively promote every day of my life. I do this to counter the bitterness and vindictiveness in the world, in  fact the very harshness which oozes from the pores of this offensive colleague.

I refuse to stop helping people, and I refuse to stop doing favours when my fellow-workers need help. To make sure no-one was in any doubt as to where I stood on the matter, in the midst of the chaos and screaming, as the announcement ("No-one does favours for anyone anymore!") was being made, I shook my head fiercely and made my own counter-announcement to my stunned colleagues: "I don't mind if you do favours for me, and I'm happy to keep doing them for you."

How do we encourage our charges to live compassionately and considerately towards each other, and towards the planet, if we can't do so ourselves?

There's only ONE loser in this story.