"...endings are beginnings..... beautiful things"

So goes the Randy Crawford song, "One Hello". I need to include it in my repertoire, now more than ever. Today was a life-altering day for me, and of course there's always more than one way to deal with these things - the perspective one chooses, colours everything that lies ahead, and so I choose to view this as a beautiful opportunity, 8 days before my 49th birthday, to reinvent myself.

And reinvent myself I will. I told a friend I was like that baby bird, just needing a nudge from its mother, so that it could finally fly out of the nest - the mother bird knows it all along and the baby bird has a suspicion it can, but until that actual moment, that point of no return, there's always some doubt in the fledgeling's mind - Can I really do this? Am I ready? What would happen if I failed?

For a long time, my Mind Power affirmation has been, "I'M LIVING THROUGH RADICAL, POSITIVE CHANGE". This is RADICAL, for sure, and I know that, as the days and weeks unfold and life peels back the layers of uncertainty and reveals to me what lies ahead, I will see just how POSITIVE this change is.

But, for right now, please allow me my time to go through the usual phases, in whatever order they may come: shock, denial, anger, bargaining, and then finally, acceptance.

Last night, just before I fell asleep, I had a strange feeling, a feeling of pending change of a major kind - a change I had been inviting into my life for a long time - so I posted this sentence on my Facebook status: I firmly BELIEVE the best is yet to come.