Hi
Yes! Yes! Yes! After 4 months of one weekly gig, I have added a second one!
Please spread the word!
Gig 1
Date: Sat 31/10
Time: 7 - 10pm
Venue: The Food Lover's Mkt Restaurant & Sushi Bar (upstairs)
Address: Corner Vineyard & Dreyer Streets, Claremont
Band: TRUDY RUSHIN (voice, guitar) & WAYNE BOSCH (guitar)
Music: Laid-back jazz, swing, pop and originals
Menu: General menu OR Saturday night special: 3-course meal + glass of wine, only R95
Cover charge: None
Gig 2
Date: Sun 01/11
Time: 6 - 9pm
Venue: Baran's Theatre Restaurant (upstairs)
Address: Corner Burg & Shortmarket Streets, Greenmarket Square, Cape Town
Band: TRUDY RUSHIN & Guest Guitarist (as part of "Spirit of Cape Town" Concert Series)
Music: Laid-back jazz, swing, pop, African and originals
Menu: Special "Spirit of Cape Town" menu: Main course (lamb/chicken/vegetarian), only R50
Cover charge: R30
Bookings: 021-426 4466
Baran's Theatre Restaurant launches its "Spirit of Cape Town" Concert Series this Sunday, 1st November, with its resident duo, headed by singer-songwriter, TRUDY RUSHIN, a born and bred Capetonian, to celebrate its re-opening after recent upgrades to both the restaurant and Greenmarket Square.
Over the coming weeks, Trudy will be showcasing talented Capetonians at this delightful venue: musicians, dancers, poets, etc.
Baran has come up with a delicious main course, at a very special price, to accompany the live entertainment, in keeping with the true spirit of the Mother City.
Please pass this e-mail on along your networks.
If you would like to find out more about being a guest in the "Spirit of Cape Town" Series, or you would like to recommend someone, please e-mail me at rushintrudy@yahoo.com or call me at 083 491 3048.
I will be keeping my blog updated, as well: http://alwaysrushin.blogspot.com
On Sun. 6 December, I'll be doing a concert of my original music at Baran's Theatre Restaurant, with a very special band. More info to follow.
“We have, at our fingertips, an infinite capacity to light a spark of possibility.”
From “The Art Of Possibility”, by Rosamund Stone Zander and Benjamin Zander
Monday, 26 October 2009
Gig e-mail for Sat. 31 Oct.
You deserve a treat! You’ve been working hard all month - why not round up some of your favourite people, and surrender yourself to the pleasure of a well-deserved night out, enjoying excellent food, to the laid-back sounds of live jazz?!
DATE: Sat 31 October 2009
TIME: 7- 10pm
VENUE: (upstairs at) The Food Lover’s Market Restaurant and Sushi Bar
ADDRESS: Cnr Vineyard & Dreyer Streets (opposite MacDonald’s), Claremont
BAND: TRUDY RUSHIN (voice, guitar) & WAYNE BOSCH (guitar)
MUSIC: Jazz, swing, bossanova, folk, blues, pop & original
OTHER:
Saturday night menu special: 3-course meal + glass of wine, only R95
No cover charge for live music
Now that the seasons have changed, the restaurant is even lovelier at night – with the balcony accessible, you can enjoy the cool night air and have a bird’s-eye view of buzzing Central Claremont, while enjoying your meal and the live music.
It’s hard to pin-point one thing that makes this place so special – rather, it’s the combination of a few successful elements that makes it stand out: the food, the laid-back ambience, the staff and (of course) the music all blend, somehow, to create the setting for a memorable night.
Interesting? Interested? Please forward this to some of your friends. (Nkos’!)
Thanks to my friends who pitched up, the last two Saturdays – so nice to have you there! Big thanks to Janice De Lilly, our guest artist last week, whose voice is so beautiful, it gives me goosebumps! You’ll be hearing a lot about her, I’m sure.
A quotation, in conclusion:
“We have, at our fingertips, an infinite capacity to light a spark of possibility.”
From “The Art Of Possibility”, by Rosamund Stone Zander and Benjamin Zander
Have a good week!
Trudy
Check out my blog, at http://alwaysrushin.blogspot.com
DATE: Sat 31 October 2009
TIME: 7- 10pm
VENUE: (upstairs at) The Food Lover’s Market Restaurant and Sushi Bar
ADDRESS: Cnr Vineyard & Dreyer Streets (opposite MacDonald’s), Claremont
BAND: TRUDY RUSHIN (voice, guitar) & WAYNE BOSCH (guitar)
MUSIC: Jazz, swing, bossanova, folk, blues, pop & original
OTHER:
Saturday night menu special: 3-course meal + glass of wine, only R95
No cover charge for live music
Now that the seasons have changed, the restaurant is even lovelier at night – with the balcony accessible, you can enjoy the cool night air and have a bird’s-eye view of buzzing Central Claremont, while enjoying your meal and the live music.
It’s hard to pin-point one thing that makes this place so special – rather, it’s the combination of a few successful elements that makes it stand out: the food, the laid-back ambience, the staff and (of course) the music all blend, somehow, to create the setting for a memorable night.
Interesting? Interested? Please forward this to some of your friends. (Nkos’!)
Thanks to my friends who pitched up, the last two Saturdays – so nice to have you there! Big thanks to Janice De Lilly, our guest artist last week, whose voice is so beautiful, it gives me goosebumps! You’ll be hearing a lot about her, I’m sure.
A quotation, in conclusion:
“We have, at our fingertips, an infinite capacity to light a spark of possibility.”
From “The Art Of Possibility”, by Rosamund Stone Zander and Benjamin Zander
Have a good week!
Trudy
Check out my blog, at http://alwaysrushin.blogspot.com
Saturday, 24 October 2009
2009 Prize-giving at Westerford High School, Newlands, Cape Town
Written Thursday 22/10/09
Last night I went to the annual prize-giving celebration at Westerford High, where my son is about to finish his first year (Grade 8). The Noel Taylor Hall (named after the school's first Principal) was crammed with pupils from all the grades, as well as parents. The seating was demarcated, so everyone knew where they were supposed to sit. (That already impressed me!) Extra seating had been created in a temporary annex, giving the hall more capacity, and that was where the younger pupils sat.
It was clear that careful planning had also gone into the layout and decoration of the stage, as well as the seating for the orchestra, at the foot of the stage. Every pupil was dressed in full winter uniform (smarter than the summer one), as per the instructions in the notice to parents.
The evening was an interesting mixture of formality and informality, with the various pupils tasked with addressing the huge gathering speaking eloquently, with just the right amount of humour. It was good to hear the prefects giving reports on the many aspects of life at Westerford, from the sporting and cultural activities to the part that fascinates me a lot - the service organisations. It's clear that the ethos of the school is deliberately values-driven and aimed at promoting well-rounded citizens. I'm actually fascinated by the school and how it manages to get so many elements essential to education so right. Yes, their fees are relatively high (+- R17000 p.a.), but that's not the only reason they're able to deliver and produce such excellence. The people who run the school are the secret ingredient. Of that I'm 100% sure.
Not only are they people of vision, themselves, but their focus is squarely on developing people; their acknowledgement of everyone, no matter how menial their rank, is evidence of that. Something special, for me, was the way both the Principal (Rob Le Roux)and the MC mentioned all the pupils present who were not going to be receiving prizes, and acknowledged their hard work. What a nice gesture! I'm sure it went a long way towards soothing a few egos in the audience (of both pupils and parents!).
The orchestra played a few items before, during and after the event, adding another dimension to the evening. The odd mistake did nothing to detract from the overall beauty and significance of the music - played by pupils (and a teacher) from the school, conducted by one of their teachers - all proudly Westerfordian.
Once again, I want to mention the interesting balance between the formal and the informal, on the night. The staff entered the hall as a procession, and all or most of them wore academic robes. The staff member who read out the names of the prize winners was extremely formal - his voice, his register, his choice of words: everything about him suggested someone who'd been in academia for many years and who clearly loved what he did. The printed programme set everything out clearly, and I was impressed to see that the lyrics of Gaudeamus Igitur, their school song and our national anthem were all printed in the programme - all of us were included in the singing of all three! (I was, once again, impressed at the attention to detail, as well as the spirit of inclusiveness!).
Juxtaposed with that formality, were the many pupils who came up onto the stage to address the audience. They were definitely the highlight of the event, because they were essentially living proof of the success of the school: all of them were well-spoken, articulate, interesting, caring, engaging and funny. The sight of the principal having a good laugh at some of the whacky things said by the various pupils also gave an indication of the spirit at the school. One doesn't feel that old-style, draconian ethos that many of us suffered through, all those years ago, but rather a refreshing alternative - a truly empowering atmosphere, where young people are nurtured and moulded, encouraged and applauded, but most of all, respected for the individuals they are.
Before ending, I want to mention two other things: firstly, that the guest of honour was the Premier of the Western Cape, Helen Zille, who (I was relieved to find!) was not there to make a speech, but merely to grace the event with her presence, and secondly, that a few days before the event, The Sunday Times had published the top 100 public schools in South Africa, and Westerford had emerged as No. 1! Needless to say, everything about the evening had had, as a backdrop, that wonderful accolade.
I suppose the comment my son made afterwards (he'd been at school since the morning, and it was after 10pm that the event ended) was the perfect conclusion for me, given the emotions I had experienced during the evening: I had one of those lump-in-the-throat moments, as we were walking to the car - it was a beautiful night, we were walking on the pathway approaching the swimming pool, Devil's Peak towering majestically before us,when my son said,with all the innocence and enthusiasm of a 14-year-old: "I love this place!".
To read more about this innovative, ground-breaking school, go to www.westerford.co.za
Last night I went to the annual prize-giving celebration at Westerford High, where my son is about to finish his first year (Grade 8). The Noel Taylor Hall (named after the school's first Principal) was crammed with pupils from all the grades, as well as parents. The seating was demarcated, so everyone knew where they were supposed to sit. (That already impressed me!) Extra seating had been created in a temporary annex, giving the hall more capacity, and that was where the younger pupils sat.
It was clear that careful planning had also gone into the layout and decoration of the stage, as well as the seating for the orchestra, at the foot of the stage. Every pupil was dressed in full winter uniform (smarter than the summer one), as per the instructions in the notice to parents.
The evening was an interesting mixture of formality and informality, with the various pupils tasked with addressing the huge gathering speaking eloquently, with just the right amount of humour. It was good to hear the prefects giving reports on the many aspects of life at Westerford, from the sporting and cultural activities to the part that fascinates me a lot - the service organisations. It's clear that the ethos of the school is deliberately values-driven and aimed at promoting well-rounded citizens. I'm actually fascinated by the school and how it manages to get so many elements essential to education so right. Yes, their fees are relatively high (+- R17000 p.a.), but that's not the only reason they're able to deliver and produce such excellence. The people who run the school are the secret ingredient. Of that I'm 100% sure.
Not only are they people of vision, themselves, but their focus is squarely on developing people; their acknowledgement of everyone, no matter how menial their rank, is evidence of that. Something special, for me, was the way both the Principal (Rob Le Roux)and the MC mentioned all the pupils present who were not going to be receiving prizes, and acknowledged their hard work. What a nice gesture! I'm sure it went a long way towards soothing a few egos in the audience (of both pupils and parents!).
The orchestra played a few items before, during and after the event, adding another dimension to the evening. The odd mistake did nothing to detract from the overall beauty and significance of the music - played by pupils (and a teacher) from the school, conducted by one of their teachers - all proudly Westerfordian.
Once again, I want to mention the interesting balance between the formal and the informal, on the night. The staff entered the hall as a procession, and all or most of them wore academic robes. The staff member who read out the names of the prize winners was extremely formal - his voice, his register, his choice of words: everything about him suggested someone who'd been in academia for many years and who clearly loved what he did. The printed programme set everything out clearly, and I was impressed to see that the lyrics of Gaudeamus Igitur, their school song and our national anthem were all printed in the programme - all of us were included in the singing of all three! (I was, once again, impressed at the attention to detail, as well as the spirit of inclusiveness!).
Juxtaposed with that formality, were the many pupils who came up onto the stage to address the audience. They were definitely the highlight of the event, because they were essentially living proof of the success of the school: all of them were well-spoken, articulate, interesting, caring, engaging and funny. The sight of the principal having a good laugh at some of the whacky things said by the various pupils also gave an indication of the spirit at the school. One doesn't feel that old-style, draconian ethos that many of us suffered through, all those years ago, but rather a refreshing alternative - a truly empowering atmosphere, where young people are nurtured and moulded, encouraged and applauded, but most of all, respected for the individuals they are.
Before ending, I want to mention two other things: firstly, that the guest of honour was the Premier of the Western Cape, Helen Zille, who (I was relieved to find!) was not there to make a speech, but merely to grace the event with her presence, and secondly, that a few days before the event, The Sunday Times had published the top 100 public schools in South Africa, and Westerford had emerged as No. 1! Needless to say, everything about the evening had had, as a backdrop, that wonderful accolade.
I suppose the comment my son made afterwards (he'd been at school since the morning, and it was after 10pm that the event ended) was the perfect conclusion for me, given the emotions I had experienced during the evening: I had one of those lump-in-the-throat moments, as we were walking to the car - it was a beautiful night, we were walking on the pathway approaching the swimming pool, Devil's Peak towering majestically before us,when my son said,with all the innocence and enthusiasm of a 14-year-old: "I love this place!".
To read more about this innovative, ground-breaking school, go to www.westerford.co.za
Wednesday, 21 October 2009
This week's gig e-mail (for Sat. 24/10/09)
Picture: Janice De Lilly (accompanied by Wayne Bosch)
Hi!
Please pass this e-mail on to friends who enjoy live music. (Thanks!)
This Saturday, 24th October, I have the pleasure of performing with guitar legend, Alvin Dyers, with whom I’ve had a long association. Alvin was my guitar teacher in the early 1990’s, and again in 2008, at Jazz Workshop Music School. He also played on my first demo CD (At Last!) in 1997, and was the guitarist in the band that I performed with at the Jazzathon at the Waterfront in January 1998. He’s so cool to work with!
Gig details:
Date: Saturday 24th October
Time: 7-10pm
Band: Trudy Rushin (voice, guitar) and Alvin Dyers (guitar)
Venue: The Food Lover’s Market (restaurant and sushi bar)
Address: Corner Vineyard and Dreyer Streets, Claremont (opposite MacDonald’s)
Parking: Either on the street (tip the parking attendants) or inside Cavendish Square (pay per hour)
Type of music: Laid-back jazz, swing, Brazilian, pop and originals
(basically: toe-tapping, stress-busting, smile-inducing)
Cover charge: None
Menu special: 3-course meal + glass of wine, only R95
(huge helpings and utterly divine!)
Guest spot:
This week, we’ll have a special guest appearance by Janice De Lilly, a talented young singer-guitarist who performed with us a few weeks ago. Her voice has a soulfulness that will take your breath away. Fairly new to the world of gigs, she certainly has a bright future ahead as a performer.
Last week, we had “MJ” (Martin John Abrahams), another gifted young singer-songwriter, who blew us away with his renditions of “Sunday Morning” and “More Than Words”, amongst others. From a gospel background, his voice is shown off beautifully when he does rock, blues and folk/pop songs.
Couldn’t resist this quotation, by one of my all-time Superwomen:
Just don't give up trying to do what you really want to do. Where there is love and inspiration, I don't think you can go wrong.
Ella Fitzgerald
There’s something new and exciting that I’ll be involved in, as from November. I’ll keep you posted via e-mail, but will also be updating my blog. You’ll find my random Rushin ramblings at http://alwaysrushin.blogspot.com
Monday, 19 October 2009
Written Sunday 18/10/09
I think I’ve become addicted to blogging! Trying to decide if it’s necessarily a bad thing. I’ve always loved writing, and I’ve always been fascinated by technology, so I suppose the meeting was inevitable. My personal journaling has changed, since I started blogging, which was also probably inevitable.
I’ve had an interesting weekend, with Saturday night’s gig one of the undeniable highlights. I used the new sound equipment for the first time in public, and was very pleased with the sound. Our guest artist was “MJ”, a guitarist and vocalist, who sang four songs during our second set and then another one at the end of the gig, when some late diners requested to hear him. What a lovely young man – a gentle personality, unassuming, modest yet aware of his talent and the fact that music is his passion. Later, I heard his professionally recorded 5-song demo CD, and I was blown away! He has a beautiful voice, one I could listen to for hours. From a gospel background, his style is a blend of rock, blues, folk and pop. His choice of repertoire showed off his voice, but when I heard his original songs (demo), I could feel the magic! The lesson for me, yet again, was that songwriters need to sing their songs!
Another really cool thing happened this weekend, on Saturday morning: I saw an infomercial that sparked off an idea for a fun workout – I got out some of my Latin music, put on some exercise clothes, and decided I’d do a 20-to-30-minute dance workout. It was such fun, I ended up dancing for 65 minutes! Rediscovered how much I love dancing, and am looking forward to doing this regularly. One of the special things about dancing to that kind of music, is that I can’t seem to stop smiling! Great stress-buster! Brazilian music, especially, has that effect on me. I also played some Carlos Santana, which also just makes me want to move. I figured out a couple of things, during the session: one, that I could use some of the beautiful slow songs to do slower, yoga-like stretches, and two, that when I felt my energy flagging, I could just play one of my favourite songs, and that would set me off again, dancing like there was no tomorrow. In fact, I highly recommend it.
There’s a saying that comes to mind: People say we stop playing because we get old, but actually we get old because we stop playing.
I’m once again contemplating the issue of commitment, a topic that rears its head periodically.
In his book, The Seat of the Soul, Gary Zukav says, at the beginning of his chapter called ‘Relationships’:
“There are certain growing dynamics that can occur only within the dynamic of commitment.” I concur. If you’re not going to risk sacrificing your single status, you’re only ever going to experience your partner in snatches, and you’re never going to know the full extent of what’s possible. I’m talking about the difference between dipping into someone’s world every now and then, and walking the journey of life with them, exploring the full power possible when two adults who love each other join forces, share resources and channel their merged energies into bringing individual and joint goals to fruition. There’s something quite tragic about two people in a relationship, with the potential, if they were to commit to each other, to make huge waves in society, as well as in each other’s lives, sitting with a situation where only one is willing to make such a commitment.
Which reminds me of another piece of wisdom: in every situation we find ourselves in, we always have a choice.
Another highlight of my weekend was my children’s return home after their week away, at their dad’s house. I will never get used to their absence, even after all these years. When they’re here, all’s right with my world. This is one aspect of divorce that sucks – not only does it force children to live disjointed lives, but it forces the parents into some kind of part-time status. But that’s another story!
It’s midnight, and I have to be up at 05:30. Time to commit to a good night’s sleep.
I’ve had an interesting weekend, with Saturday night’s gig one of the undeniable highlights. I used the new sound equipment for the first time in public, and was very pleased with the sound. Our guest artist was “MJ”, a guitarist and vocalist, who sang four songs during our second set and then another one at the end of the gig, when some late diners requested to hear him. What a lovely young man – a gentle personality, unassuming, modest yet aware of his talent and the fact that music is his passion. Later, I heard his professionally recorded 5-song demo CD, and I was blown away! He has a beautiful voice, one I could listen to for hours. From a gospel background, his style is a blend of rock, blues, folk and pop. His choice of repertoire showed off his voice, but when I heard his original songs (demo), I could feel the magic! The lesson for me, yet again, was that songwriters need to sing their songs!
Another really cool thing happened this weekend, on Saturday morning: I saw an infomercial that sparked off an idea for a fun workout – I got out some of my Latin music, put on some exercise clothes, and decided I’d do a 20-to-30-minute dance workout. It was such fun, I ended up dancing for 65 minutes! Rediscovered how much I love dancing, and am looking forward to doing this regularly. One of the special things about dancing to that kind of music, is that I can’t seem to stop smiling! Great stress-buster! Brazilian music, especially, has that effect on me. I also played some Carlos Santana, which also just makes me want to move. I figured out a couple of things, during the session: one, that I could use some of the beautiful slow songs to do slower, yoga-like stretches, and two, that when I felt my energy flagging, I could just play one of my favourite songs, and that would set me off again, dancing like there was no tomorrow. In fact, I highly recommend it.
There’s a saying that comes to mind: People say we stop playing because we get old, but actually we get old because we stop playing.
I’m once again contemplating the issue of commitment, a topic that rears its head periodically.
In his book, The Seat of the Soul, Gary Zukav says, at the beginning of his chapter called ‘Relationships’:
“There are certain growing dynamics that can occur only within the dynamic of commitment.” I concur. If you’re not going to risk sacrificing your single status, you’re only ever going to experience your partner in snatches, and you’re never going to know the full extent of what’s possible. I’m talking about the difference between dipping into someone’s world every now and then, and walking the journey of life with them, exploring the full power possible when two adults who love each other join forces, share resources and channel their merged energies into bringing individual and joint goals to fruition. There’s something quite tragic about two people in a relationship, with the potential, if they were to commit to each other, to make huge waves in society, as well as in each other’s lives, sitting with a situation where only one is willing to make such a commitment.
Which reminds me of another piece of wisdom: in every situation we find ourselves in, we always have a choice.
Another highlight of my weekend was my children’s return home after their week away, at their dad’s house. I will never get used to their absence, even after all these years. When they’re here, all’s right with my world. This is one aspect of divorce that sucks – not only does it force children to live disjointed lives, but it forces the parents into some kind of part-time status. But that’s another story!
It’s midnight, and I have to be up at 05:30. Time to commit to a good night’s sleep.
Friday, 16 October 2009
It starts!
Yesterday I went down to the venue where I'm planning to have my concert, and had Meeting No. 1 with the owner. Went very well - agreed in principle, with details to be looked at next. It starts!
Since then, I've typed up a detailed proposal, and will take it to him next week, for Meeting No. 2. Very exciting!!! I'm thinking of doing the show on Sunday 6 December, which is in 7 weeks' time. I'm going to plot a detailed marketing strategy, with time frames, and start as soon as we've finalised the important bits.
Technically, the last time I did a concert was on 1 February, this year, when I did a trio gig at the Nassau Hall, in Newlands, with Wayne Bosch (guitar) and Shaun Johannes (double bass); but that was one set, so it wasn't a whole concert. The similarity between that one and this one is that original material will form the core of the repertoire. I'm thinking of once again adding a double bassist to the duo, but possibly also a percussionist.
So much to think about! I've just been jotting down some thoughts, and am getting more and more excited. Will write more as I go along.
My partner and I often discuss the way the concepts of scarcity and prosperity consciousness play out in our respective lives. With that as a backdrop, I'd like to share these wise words with you, by Oprah Winfrey:
Be thankful for what you have; you'll end up having more.
If you concentrate on what you don't have, you will never, ever have enough.
Thursday, 15 October 2009
Something old, something new....
This week, I was given a gift that I still don't know how to respond to, other than to keep saying "Thank you" until I'm told not to. Seriously, though, this is a gift that has the potential to make a huge difference in my life - a set of new sound equipment, including a new mic!
Now, let me put this into perspective. In December 1996, when I left my permanent job with the Western Cape Education Department, I invested in a brand new, bottom-of-the-range set of sound equipment, in order to give myself the freedom to do my own thing. Having my own P.A. top, speakers and mic meant I would not have to depend on others to provide me with sound whenever I wanted to perform. It was a 100W system (ja, ja!) and the only part that I had to replace was the P.A top, when it was stolen during a burglary. At that time, the replacement was bought by the same person who's just bought me the new stuff.
But my mic has an even more interesting story - I must've bought it in about 1990! About two years ago, I broke my own rule and lent it to someone for his gig, and when it came back, it was broken. It still worked, but something in the head had cracked, and part of the inside was now visible. I continued to use it as my only mic (pawned previous spare many years ago, during low patch after divorce), and it's been an important ally in my pursuit of my goals. That old mic has actually travelled a long journey with me, and as you can guess, I have no intention of parting with it! It's a Roland D-45! (!) Something like the Morris 1100 of microphones. By the way, I used to drive one of those! Her name was Dweezle. Some of my older friends and acquaintances would remember her. (Think mid-1980s)
I remember, I used to drive to UWC for my part-time lectures, and every now and then, Dweezle would get stuck along that last stretch of road before campus, and as my friends would come into the lecture hall, they'd say, "I saw your car stuck on the bridge" or "That was YOUR car I saw, right?". It became a standard greeting, with the second part of the sentence eventually becoming superfluous, so I'd be greeted with, "I saw ..." (I'd smile and nod), or "That was...?" (smile and nod).
I had two friends, Pam and Yusuf, who because they were always together, I ended up calling "Pamnyusuf", and the three of us would take turns, each using our car for a week at a time, fetching the others and generally sharing the load. The funny thing was that I think we must've got stuck in each of our cars, at some stage or the other! In those days you could still hitch-hike, which we would end up doing, just to get to campus, then we'd figure out how to: a) get home and b) get the car towed home safely. I think my brother-in-law must've bailed me out many times. In fact, I think he's actually towed me home in EVERY car I've owned. It actually took me a while to get a car that wasn't manufactured in the same decade I was born in! But that's another story! The plan now is to buy one that was made in this century, sometime in 2010.
And so, this Saturday I step out into my magical musical world with my new sound. We've been trying all kinds of combinations and permutations (lots of knobs to fiddle with), and we'll give it a go in public. Scary, but exciting. I generally live my life according to the "less is more" principle, and that usually works for me (hence the almost 20-yr-old mic and car!), so when I find myself having to operate at a more sophisticated level, in any area of my life that's stood still for a while, I do get a bit anxious, with half of me excited as hell and the other half wishing I could just hide behind the familiar, the comfortable, the same ol' same ol', the safe.
There's a saying that goes something like this: How can you keep doing the same thing, in the same way, and expect different results?
As commonplace as change is, it's still something I have a love-hate relationship with. I allege that I want it (my big affirmation being, "I'm living through radical, positive change"), and that I'm doing everything in my power to attract it, but when it comes, I can feel myself trembling inside, that scared child of long ago wondering, "Can I really do this? Am I actually good enough? What if I'm not as good as they think I am?"
So there, I've said it. Now I feel much better. Yes, I do have moments of self-doubt, but I'm unlearning those self-defeating beliefs/patterns, and consciously embracing new ones:
I CAN do this!
I AM good enough!
I AM as good as they think I am, AND I'm getting better all the time!
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